arghhhh….a whole week of planning for my stupid CHARITY SALES. charity kononnya. Hate the lady…last minute tell us that travillion flee market only opens at saturday 4pm when my sales in on sunday morning…CRAP MAN. i mean like…we’ve already sent all the flyers out..then preparing for all the other stuffs. NINCOMPOOP LADY.crap her. no electricity also!!die…pffbth. *sniffles*
isn’t it appetizing??!?!?!ARGHHHHHHH
now noone has the chance to taste it!!hmphhh…pbbfth
retardeddddd….yeeshh…
so hmm.for the past week i haven’t been able to update..BLAH. Many thoughts have been flustering around in my mind…keeping me frustrated. sighs. As always. whatever.
I drew a butterfly the other day…hehe…i love posting photos
isn’t it pweddyy… simple that’s what i like about it^^
ngeh…next week i have oral assessment. CRAP. stage fright. Ian suggested that i try minimize the phobia by imagining the scene where everyone is staring at you with their beady eyes waiting for you to present your script. And till you become a little immune to it..it won’t be as frightening as it was before… I hope it freaking works cause i’ve got a HUGE phobia of stage fright…I will turn white O.o
waffles…i’ll still make em.i.don’t.care. shhtteewwpeeeddd lady.curses.
Oh by the way. I got the 15th position in class for this first exam.yee ha. at least it is 15…not 20…mama aint that bad eyy??ahha
“Teardrops On My Guitar”
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night
[Chorus:]
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see.
this song is sad.makes me wanna cry somehow.*sniff* anyway thanks to jon…i love Taylor Swift’s songs..especially this one ^^ makes me vulnerable somehow.=T
Hmmm…today…I went to waterfront with my mum.Yeah, weird thing to do. It was freaking weird infact.gee.I had myself thinking things on my own…conversation between me and me was really nerve racking. Got reminded of my childhood days…got myself into the spiritual mood because the surroundings of nature were too amazing. don’t you just adore the beauty of trees…sigh.It makes me sad seeing how strong they can stand…how weak i am as a human…with so many thoughts lingering…it’s just the human body and the soul.Why are there so much complexities in life??Why can’t it just comprehend…things just comes and goes…God has only given us time to find out. Well that doesn’t really explain my problem.But it just adds up to the complications of life. I observed the fire…the look of it..the movement…it’s just..incredible. The outline of fire is ever changing.It spreads…the colour it illuminates..bright…ever shining.the whole thing fluctuates all the time.blah. Sigh. I just wish i had known better what i can do. What was i doing…why was i doing that…why do i insists…when i know it is not supposed to be. i feel so effing lost. I don’t know what am i suppose to do next.geezzz… Doesnt quite mean a thing but…i’m just lost. Don’t know what i want, don’t know what to do, don’t know what i’m doing. sighs. I realized i’ve been too contented trying to boost my social life to feel happy…to that i have forgotten all about myself…till today i just got myself finking of myself…i seriously do not know what do I want.Crap. Feel so empty and lost and much of nothingness.Feels crappy.nostalgiccccc -.- aishhh I wonder what’s gonna happen tonight…
Anyway last night was awesome. Out with my family!sorta…haha…friends who just got their spm results that is. A few going away to other places study…this how it goes.People just enters your life and leaves nonchalantly. It’s sad…but nothing much could be done.All i can do is just wish that they’ll remember me and hang out with me when they come back…my favourite grandpaps of the “family” though i only have one…is so nice. We went Bing…
yikes.I will miss you!!
tee hee.no point talking about bloody depressing shits.buhbye.
random pic of me again.hahahahha.it’s so freaking kek cute.but whatever.like once in awhile.besides.i like this photo…though it’s cute.somehow.shit.cute.pffbth.it looks nice anyway.-.-
HAHHAHA
hmmphhh!!! “There she goes…there she goes again…” hahhahaha…me is back in action!yeepee wooooooooooooooooo tut tut tut…exam’s finally over…good to know that, yet afraid to know what my results would me. I doubt that i would pass all…*gulp* curse add maths!!and physics…curses curses!! i’m so gonna fail it…2 blank pages…sighh…hmph. I remembered my study week. torture that is. Though i was slacking as days pass, finking that it’s gonna finish soon. First few days i was quite motivated…last few days was like me being half hearted =.= I’ve been studying every night till 12 and waking up by 4 am to study till i go school.hahah.i know, so kia su .but still can’t get all the information into my head. I remembered my sister and I created a theory that by putting the book on top of our heads the information would seep in through it and then we can gather information easily. I know it sounds really dumb, but being desperate and frustrated and blur and crappy, i just had to do it. like 10 minutes.hahahaha. XD
hrmmm i haven’t been updating my blog since like the last valentines.so well chinese new year was fun.Quite okay…i learnt how to light up the fireworks.hahahaha. i is smart. Ah jen really mempersiasoikan.no offense though, jen.hahaha. i didn’t know how to use lighter then she ask me to practice using it till i know how…which made me like jump everytime i slide my finger down the whatever-u-call-that-thing-to-light-it .haha.funny to fink of it. But that’s me-.- ok lighting fireworks ain’t anyhow hard.Just that it’s my first time and i’m proud of it. hmph. at least i ever did try!!unlike SOME people…ask me practice using lighter-.- see!! people who don’t know how to use lighter is also capable of doing it. Proves much that i’m amazing ^^ right.haha. But then, i tried lighting the stupid ” cai lei ” that goes like BOOOMMM loud loud. then i thought i know how to use lighter…not knowing when the wick of the firecracker was facing me-.- and yea i burnt myself. crap. no worries.just a small bit of my little thumb.haha. but then it was like darkened into some weird colour on my skin. like bacon. O.o” worst thing was when i burnt myself i quickly threw it away…not knowing where it went.mebbe into the drain. but it didn’t explode. SADLY . all my hard work.sniff. and risk. sad.sad.sad. okayy this is pathetically sad. 0.o
hmph. i got sick before exam. first time ever in my life, i couldn’t voice out anything. *sniff* so ironic. maybe i had a few times like that, just that i don’t remember it and was a really torturing experience.I had to communicate using body language or writing down.if not, WHISPER. that’s what I always do though.hahaha. Then use tissues like drinking water, though i don’t reali drink water -.- till when my flu was okay, baru my parents bring me go visit the doctor. antibiotics helped alot. I recovered incredulously fast. HAHA.miracolous.
So anyway, last night went K BOX…hahahhaha i was nearly deafened by the out of tune damn hard to listen ear destroying singings of two guys–> ian and brian eddie -.- geez…but it was no doubt quite amusing and fun. Hahah.Ian helped me make a guy fink that he’s my boyfriend. Was quite fun going out shopping with him. Talk crap.eat ice kacang and got ourselves frozen till we didn’t wanna continue eating -.- haha. Saw tonful of couples. dot. dot. dot. Was tricked by guys.They get my phone then see my vain pics and i was like. *showing innocent face saying “please hand it over”* =( hahaa. pffbth tricked by guys again.-.- went to eat ramlee burger!not really eat, just one bite. Was lavish to get more. Haha. except too tired to do so.
well hmm. the recent updates of me. Lazy wanna make it look better. Haha. blogging is fun. yeepeewoo.^^
